Chapter 3: Saying Good-Bye
By now you should know a little about me. In a quick nutshell I'm sarcastic as hell, (probably going to hell but at least it's warm) a hard worker, passionate about my friends and family (cross one of them and just see what happens) and a bit of a loner.
I know you're probably saying, "Wait Megan how are you a loner? The job you love most is photographing people! That seems counter productive."
Well it's true. Sarcasm can only get you so far.
The loner aspect comes from not wanting to let anyone down. That's part of the reason why I'm such a hard worker and so critical of myself. I can't let me down if I don't do it. And by trying to please everyone at one point or another I end up alienating myself.
Putting my heart and soul into all of my work, no matter what I'm doing, can get tiring after a while. Especially if you lose yourself along the way. The major lesson I want you to walk away with after reading this is; if you end up in a toxic environment, no matter how long it's been, RUN FOR THE HILLS! I wish I had this advice over a year ago. Also no pay check/day is worth YOU.
Photography almost became the "love" that got away from me. Thanks to some great friends for kicking me in the ass to do something about it by checking up on me and never letting up. The part that sucks is I have to say good-bye to a work family I like and for the most part likes me too(depending on the day). I want to thank this family for teaching me a lot and for being so supportive of me, always!
Quitting is typically not in my vocabulary...that is actually doing it. I would say "I quit" at least 5 times a day. Mainly because I was fed up. Giving all you have and getting nothing in return can be very taxing. But when you get to the point where you don't recognize yourself in the mirror, calling it quits is the best medicine.
It's always hard to say good-bye. I personally hate them. But this is a chapter in everyones life. Good-bye's are like snowflakes, no 2 are the same and they are all precious in their own way. They aren't meant to last forever and the coldness (pain) will disappear in time.